A few of my own poems not unrelated to my story:-

"Mi Amiga"

"Madre Tierra"

Heavenly sigh:

I sigh when the lady is so nice,

I have to leave and say "goodbye",

This moment so pure so fine,

should not be shared,

be only mine,

the song you switch off,

the averted stare,

the pleasure rips

your soul bare, the moment

pure,

you can never share.

(When she is so nice you have to look away!)

_____

Gipsy girl:

Dark hair, dark eyes.

Black mood, black life,

Where is she my love my life,

Dark secret wrapped,

in black,

little gipsy girl,

brown eyes,

hair jet black.

Black curly hair,

deep black eyes,

black mood - she's not there,

curls and spikes,

it's no right,

it's not fair!

_____

"Still. Shows a lot of bitterness and deep pain and resentment. I'm glad you're expressing it. Thank you for sharing. Vivid imagery."

Happily Ever After

To live happily ever after,

stupid laughter

doesn't matter

forever after

she's a pain

she's cocaine

's to blame

never the same

when your cained

by angry dad

makes me sad

or the strap

Hell is black

How much has it cost me?

a lobotamy

Not UR property

get off of me

get off scott free

un believebly

and we all lived

Happily Ever After!

Cue the canned laughter

Happily Ever After!

(he said with a certain bitterness)

Once upon a time:

Went for my angiogram,

only half a man

hearts now broken

damn man

I'm damned

love you Jan

Why does she hate me?

Berate me

Rape me

Take me away

Once upon a time

'S fine

don't mind

feel you round me

hold my hand

my head in the sand

all this is planned

Once upon a time

we should've been together

but never

were

forever Jan

never your man

not the plan

hold my hand

say it again

Once upon a time

it's all in my mind

Once upon a time:

...and we all lived happily ever after,

she was so cute and fine

she's clever

and never

mine,

Once upon a time

my lifes in danger

who's that?

a twat!

it's me!

hit with a bat, I'm such a twat!

never the same never

forever

no-one to blame, just shame,

never together

for forever

Once upon a time!

Once upon a time:

I loved her too much, much too much,

I was a fool

I'm to blame we all know,

so,

Never again, let it be so,

Once upon a time

life was fine

for a time,

mine,

she's not coming back

I am a twat,

to love her so

to let my love grow

From an old oak tree.

Hanging from a rope,

me,

wanted to die

wanted to cry

commit suicide

Once upon a time.

Once upon a time:

We got UR back, we're proud of you,

Got my back

so that

I can be the best I can

a real man?

real man?

if I can

no! I am a twat

Get off my back,

beaten to death

by a bat

silly twat

not a man

the best I can

Now she hates me

never mine

never mind

Jan, not for me

not a man, can

never be

don't allow it

We've got UR back,

but UR a twat

hit with a bat

Jan, clever Jan,

never hold her again

never the same again

We got UR back

You twat!

You think you're so cool,

fool,

Take that!

And we all lived happily after!

_____

Once upon a time:

Take the pink pill,

"I feel ill!"

love me! Never!

forever,

why am I so ill?

still,

I never get better, even the pill,

now makes me ill.

Once upon a time,

left me dying,

take the pink pill and,

even if you are ill,

imagine UR together

and though

it will

never,

happen, you have tried and died,

Once upon a time,

hanging from an oak tree,

because no-one spoke to me,

clothes line,

dying

trying to let go

blind

holding her hand

Imagine

It's only a thought

us together

better together

always and forever

but

only in my mind!

Once upon a time!

_____

Heavenly sigh:

I sigh when the lady is so nice,

I have to leave and say "goodbye",

This moment so pure so fine,

should not be shared,

be only mine,

the song you switch off,

the averted stare,

the pleasure rips

your soul bare, the moment

pure,

you can never share.

(When she is so nice you have to look away!)

____

The Garden:

Forever in the Garden

I have never been away from you

even though it seems I do

we have always been together

forever

me and you

__

Mí amiga qué no existía

Hacía

Una cosa qué no existía

a una persona

qué

ní tampoco existía

___

"Cielo E Infierno":-

Oh Madre Tierra

Qué te han hecho

Dulce Madre Tierra

Una vida tan antigua

Un alma tan joven

envuélveme en tu tierno helecho

seca mis lägrimas

___

Who is my father, my mother my brother,

They are me no other,

Just me there is no other

___

We are one and,

when all this is done,

no me no you

no here no there

the two become one.

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